fatigue

just emotionally fatigued right now... this weekend was fun. went to NC and canoed/kayaked to a ghost town. jessica and i argued the whole weekend and we both seemed to have irritated the hell out of each other yesterday in front of the group we went with. the ride back was kind of awkward because the guy next to me kept asking me what was wrong. i'm one of those people that jsut doesn't want to talk about it when i'm pissed... i like to blow off some steam first... but unfortanely being cramped in a van makes it hard to distance myself from the situation. i told jessica i needed a day or two to get stuff straight in my head. i need to organize my thoughts and figure out exactly where we are as whatever it is we have morphed into the last month or so. jessica also lost a friend to a car accident this past week... that makes me feel like shit because that's a terrible thing to go through but i don't feel like im in any position to console her or be there for her... that's about it... a very chipper post indeed!